Lovely to hear from you. Yes I live in Leighton Buzzard, how you feel about where you live in Dorset is how I feel about living here, I know it is your home county but I so miss the sea. Sunday I went for a long walk in Ashridge forest, so beautiful to hear the birds so soothing. Please tell me of places around here that you enjoyed going with your husband, if of course your memories are not too painful.
We originated from Yorkshire, moved to North Norfolk in 1966 where my maternal rootes were. I now find myself living in LB only 3 mins walk from our son and family who have been absolutely wonderful, here comes the - but - I too feel very isolated, as I dont have the interest in LB, joining groups is a no no. I need to be with people I know as explaining upsets me. LB Parish church hold a bereavement service every month, I did go to one, it was just 35 mins long but really lovely.
My church is 40 mins away, as a family we go to Hendon Salvation Army.
I miss walking on the beach daily in north Norfolk, miss my friends although they have suggested I go back and they will look after me, I could not possibly ask that of them. So I have decided to use my place as a base. I had a friend visit me for a few days, 2 weeks ago, on her way to Devon, driving herself, her husband passed away 3 years ago, that was her first time driving such a long way on her own at 77 yrs old. That evening she rang to say except for hold ups at Bristol everything went well. My challenge in the next few weeks is to follow her example and drive myself to see our other son who lives in Devon. Can I do it, thinking and doing are too different things !! i will see.
Am i strong enough, I will see.
My son took me last week to my, best friends funeral (sounds like a film) in Norwich I now feel I could do that journey into North Norfolk, what I am trying to say is 7 months ago my darling husband passed into Glory, although still incredibly hard , I am beginning to feel positive, not everyday, maybe just 2/3 days in a week but at the moment there is a chink of light. I am expecting a relapse, !!!!
Jackie if by messaging me about your life in Bedfordshire or to ease your situation at the moment living in Dorset, will help in any small way, you may have my email if that helps but please let us see if we can unload your burden. We need to keep your mind focused on returning back to Bedfordshire if that is what you need to do.
You have been through a dreadful ordeal and your MS is certainly a handicap for you, having to give up your best friend what a lovely caring lady you are to put your animal first,
Do you have any interests, knitting, sewing, crosswords, painting I used to do patchwork/quilting and I was an avid reader but at the moment I just knit and crotchet (not very good at all, I may resort to knitting dishcloths) if you do knit, I have a pattern for premature baby hats and tiny jumpers, I knit twiddle muffs for dementia patients (look that up on google) all hospitals will welcome them. I watch hallmark films, not the news or anything that makes me feel sad.
Please do think I am taking your situation lightly, I certainly am not just trying to ease your burden that you have found yourself in.
Sue Ryders forum in my view has been a life saver to so many people.
God Bless, I am sure you know the song with the line:
Take it to the Lord in prayer (What a friend)
Today, look for something to make you smile.
Lots of love