I have been cleaning up old email files.
I came across an exchange of Whatsapps with Eileen when she was in hospital recovering from her heart operation. I had made some jokey observation about some of the surgical team - nothing hurtful, neither of us did that sort of thing.
Nevertheless, she took me gently to task, and rebuked me for being flippant about "people who have given me a few more years of life."
Less than a week later, she was dead.
(Well, I don't know for sure yet, but I am so hopeful.)
I have mentioned elsewhere in the forum that I have lost a particular favourite photograph of my beloved Eileen taken in 1972/3 when she was 28/29. She looked particularly beautiful, smart, desirable, gentle and kind. Oh, how proud I was, and smug, when I spotted her getting admiring glances. Despite a desperate search I have not been able to find the photo, and I am distraught.
Now there is a glimmer of hope. Whilst cleaning up those emails, I came across an exchange between me and the lady Lay Minister who conducted Eileen's funeral. The LM mailed me after a meeting to discuss arrangements, and thanks me for a picture of Eileen that I gave to her. I don't know which photo that was. That it was not an up-to-date photo is obvious, as in my reply I attached another image of Eileen which I described as "more recent, to aid recognition."
The LM and I intended another meeting a few days later, and perhaps there was an intention to return the photo, but this second meeting didn't take place.
So you know what I am hoping, don't you ? That the photo I passed over on that first meeting is the one that I have been seeking, of course !
All this was going on within a few days of Eileen's death, and I was in a daze, which is why my recollection is so poor.
I have emailed the Lay Minister again, so please wish me luck !