My son's funerel was on Thursday, hardest thing in the world to go through.I don't know what to do with myself. Miss him so much and so sad all of the time. A young man with his whole life in front of him. It's heartbreaking.I will never be the same again

I'm so sorry for your loss. My sons funeral was just over 2 years ago. I know I was there but it feels like another person. It was hellish. Give yourself time and breathing space to process everything.
Your right things will never be the same and you will feel his loss and the sadness that comes with his loss everyday but bit by bit you will cope with that sadness in your own way. Sending hugs

Sorry for your loss too, I'm sorry for every one in this awful situation. I'm finding it a struggle to do anything at the moment. Just feel like I'm in a bad dream, how I wish it was. It's early days ..... as everyone keeps reminding me .thanks for your support, love Tracey xx

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I am so very sorry to hear of your loss Faith and understand your loss. I don’t think anyone can understand our loss of losing a child. I lost my lovely, funny and adorable son David 2 years ago. I am all alone these days without grandchildren or even family and all seem to have got over without mentioning him...I am heartbroken, the pain is a little easier but I am nowhere near acceptance at the moment. I wish you all well and hope you have peace.

Thankyou, I know it's early days but I can't imagine ever getting over losing my son.life will never be the same again for us now. How can it be .people do not get it at all, I suppose you can't expect them to , the pain and heartache is there all of the time isn't it . A young man with his whole life in front of him. How do we get over that .sorry for your loss . Hope time helps us all a little eventually. Tracey xx

Hello Faith,
I lost my son Sam who was 34 to a brain tumour in December 2016. He had an operation to remove the tumour in Jan 2013, but it came back in a place they couldn't operate. He died here at home in my arms with his family and his very best friend around him. That was just over 2 years ago and I would give my life just to have him back, we all thought he would make it but he was re diagnosed in August '16. You never get over the loss of a child whatever age, you learn small baby steps at first to walk alongside your grief. I can now smile at people and I have some very close friends who have never left my side, and for which I am very grateful. If you have anyone close and you feel you can talk about your son to anyone who will listen tell them how proud you are of him. I know I talk about Sam all the time as it makes me feel closer to him. I will not talk of Sam in the past tense he was too brave and too well loved as I am sure your son was to ever put him in the past.

With love

Thankyou all for your support, yesterday was a bad day. Didn't know what to do with myself, tears all day and couldn't do anything but that. I'm struggling . I can't seem to do anything but think of his last 2 hours which was traumatic. We had to say goodbye to him at the hospital as there was nothing they could do to save him. It was a cardiac arrest. Heartbreaking. I know I, ll never be the same .miss him so much .love Tracey xx

My mum would like me to get out of the house today ,I'm quite happy to sit here all day thinking. She's suggested a walk and a coffee but I really don't feel like it.if anyone suggests going out I feel guilty at the thought. I always think about my son and what he would be doing and what he should have been doing.he used to spend every other weekend with his girlfriend and then she would come here. I'm also finding that my friends don't really know how to be with me. All I want to do I suppose is talk about my son and how I feel. I can't help it. Also other people have suggested I try and get back to work. I couldn't cope with work . Thankyou all again for your support, I've read all of your posts and my heart goes out to all of you. With love xx

Hello Faith
I know exactly how you feel, but how would you son feel about you just staying there. A walk would be good and also you can reflect on your son as well whilst your walking. I used to walk all the time where Sam and I walked over those last few months just reflecting but it did help. Yes you're right to want to talk about him, that is good and only natural and if it makes you feel OK that's fine. Your mum is trying to help you, she has lost her grandson but she is being strong for you.

With love Helen

Hi Helen, I did manage to go for a walk and coffee with mum.whenever I go out I feel like I'm in a dream if that makes sense. Think I need to keep pushing myself to do small things . I went to the library as well on the way home and they have ordered me a couple of books on coping with bereavement. I,ll try anything that helps with the grief. Thanks again .love Tracey xx