Hi.. First time poster.
My mum died suddenly when I was 22 and my sister was 19. She had swine flu, went into an induced coma and died when she came off the breathing apparatus due to a heart attack, she was only 45.
We all lived in the same house at the time and were very close, more so my sister and my mum, they were best friends.
Anyway they had a bit of a falling out a day or 2 before my mum was poorly and I think it eats her up but. I'm 30 now and have 2 kids 7 & 4. My eldest wasn't conceived whilst my mum was alive, he's autistic and I'm having a hard time mentally at the minute with not just him but life in general. My wife has a terminal illness too, which I have know about since we met...
Anyway to the point. I'm really missing my mums support lately and just her in general. Her Ashes are at my sisters house but I would love them to be buried where my great grandparents are, I think my nan wants this too but she hasn't said to me directly. I just want a place to go and feel my mums presence really i know it probably sounds silly but I have started missing her so much and my youngest son occasionally askes if I have a mummy.