My dad died Saturday. I’m broken I think and I cry, I’m on my own and I cry, someone just hints towards it and I cry. I’m completely broken without him. I feel guilty for not seeing him more, for not seeing him at Christmas for everything. I love him so much it’s awful. I want to just go on as if he’s still there and ignore the fact he isn’t.
I'm so sorry to hear that your dad has died. Crying is very natural, and can be a good way to vent your emotions, so do go ahead and cry if you feel that you need to. Guilt is also a very common part of grief, and something we see discussed a lot here on the online community.
I hope that being part of this community helps you feel a little less alone in what you are going through. While you wait for more replies to your post, you may also find it helpful to read other people's posts in the Losing a Parent section of the site, and post some replies if you see someone you'd like to talk more to.