New Year


This is a hard day for those of us entering our first new year without our loved partner( and for others too I’m sure). After the worst year of my life entering the next year just seems like a blank, unimaginable. Thinking of all in the same situation.

In reply to Dido

My thoughts exactly. The days since Christmas have been dreadful leading up to this day, they have been the bleakest and most tearful since my lovely husband died just over five months ago. I didn't want to spend this evening with anyone else, just on my own with him in mind.
I do not know how I can go into a new year without him and live a life that is so empty.
Loving thoughts with all of you tonight xx

In reply to Dido

I thought Christmas was lonely, but going into a new year less than 7weeks after loosing my husband is beyond words. Some friends and his family seem to be giving me a wide berth. Why? I have no idea. This is when it hits me that my life will never be the same again and they can seem to carry on. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t begrudge them coping with their grief the way they are doing but I feel even more lost and alone than ever. I know without doubt that Gerald would be appalled by his family’s attitude towards me. He was my life as I was his and I just want him back.

Thank you Sadone. Somehow we will do it and I know people say to me that he would have wanted me to get the most out of life again....which he would...but it’s very very hard . X

Thinking of you. I know all we want is to have our husbands back. I don’t know anything about your friends and family but life does carry on for other people and that can be very hard for those of us who haven’t got the life we had any more.

Hi all, I lost my lovely husband just over 4 weeks ago. We always enjoyed New Year's Eve, and there have been lots of tears today. I am 52, both of my parents are still alive and been married for 54 years. Even they don't understand what I am going through, and why should they. I feel so alone. My grown up children are fretting about leaving me at home whilst they go out, but to be honest I am happy to sit in and think about George. I have his ashes on the table next to me so I feel him near. However, I will go to bed and try to sleep before midnight. I hope you all have a peaceful evening xx

Hi Everyone,
I lost my husband in February 2018, and this is my first New Year alone too. I'm not going out - it's the last thing on my mind - and am just staying home with my dogs and reflecting on the year just ending. I feel lost, alone, upset. It's been a hard year trying to rebuild my life, but I have moved forward bit by bit. I know I'll never fully recover from my loss. No matter where I go or what I do my Stewart is always with me. But i do hope that I'll never have another year like this one, and that 2019 will be better. With hope and love, Tulabelle x

I thought I was coping but then I tried to put some of Gerald’s belongings away today and I just sat and sobbed. We never unpacked after moving and I hate being in the house on my own for too long. I need to get it straight so that I can sell it. I stay with either my brother or my sister. We had such plans when we were going to move. He died so suddenly we never got the chance to do anything. I don’t even feel that I have a home now. It was going to be a new chapter in our lives. All taken from me in a matter of weeks. Why does life have to be so cruel? I hope that all of us find some peace and strength to cope during this new year. xx

Hello Daphne,
I have asked myself many times why life is so cruel. I wish I knew the answer, if I did I would share it with everyone in this group. You are in an awful situation, having to sell your home while still grieving for your husband, and I am sorry that you have to sort out his things at this time. All of us in this group are dealing with our loss in different ways, and as such can offer you our own experiences of dealing with it. We are all here to support you during this most difficult of journeys, so please keep posting. With warm wishes Tulabelle x

Good Riddance 2018.

I hate you.