Hi Guys, I resonate with everyone on this site, it's b....y devastating losing the love of your life. I was with my David 46 years, married for 42 of them, it's like your heart has been ripped out, he's in my thoughts all the time, all the things in the house we both worked for they mean nothing to me now. I keep telling my brain to switch off, it won't.
I was doing ok last week, then a wave hit me again. Can't stop crying.
I was in my local chemist, when my friends daughter (who works there) I just smiled at her, and wham tears, choking tears, bless her she left her customer and came round to me, giving me a hug. Goodness knows what people thought, well I'm not bothered about it to be honest.
Since then I've had meltdowns, on and off for days.
I like Trish too have joined Way up and spend too much time on bereavement sites.
But it's therapy for me, as these people are like friends, who completely and utterly understand your grief.
I have joined groups, walking group, craft classes and also attend Cruse bereavement drop in once a fortnight. I don't really want these things at the moment, I go to be honest for the company to get me out of the house, everyone is friendly.
Perhaps I've done it too soon. Like everyone I did everything with my David.
I've photos of him everywhere, kiss the photo goodnight and again in the morning, that lovely smile he has.
It's my Daughters birthday soon, the first without her dad, I'm surely going to make her cry when she opens up her card, photo of her dad, and the message I have written to her. Remember Dad held you first, and cried when you were born. I've signed it from both of us.
We were a good family, I also have 2 sons, can't fault any of them so supportive.
But I don't burden them, they too have there lives to lead. As someone said to me recently, you have no idea what it's like to lose someone, until it happens to you.
So b....y true.
All your posts, I do read, very caring people on here, I like everyone else need the support to get through this devastation. Big hugs to everyone, x